i keep getting sucked back in. i don't know what it is. i don't really know what i want now and i'm so confused and i know he is too. everything goes great for a little while, and he'll make me happy and I'll make him laugh and then something just shifts and we're right back to where we started. i really just want to fucking let it go already but for those of you who know me, it's just not that simple.

maybe i should really start taking my friends' advice and just give it up. obviously nothing good is coming out of this.

ANYWAY, on a lighter note, this weekend is going to be awesome. Probably drink Friday, Lady Gaga Saturday with the creeps, and Bamboozle to see Reign Supreme on Sunday. Also with the creeps, and my mama. Hopefully my brother can get us to meet someone cool, like Gwen Stefani, bahaha.

read this.

http://whythefuckdoyouhaveakid.com/

justttpam (10:07:01 PM): i think we need to find a new type of guy
justttpam (10:07:03 PM): maybe not a new type
justttpam (10:07:05 PM): a new group

YERP.

can't stop listening to this

the only video i could find of the song that wasn't of paris hilton naked, painted gold.

see the lonely boy, out on the weekend.

i've been feeling really good lately. things are looking up. i just can't wait until this is all over.

me and stef have started going to the gym. i was always too lazy and hated going, but honestly i feel so much healthier and better about myself now. plus, i can't wait to look hotter, ya know?

my brother is currently in paris, touring with reign supreme. BUT he will be home exactly a week from today. also, he will be playing at Dingbatz in Clifton on Sunday, and then again at Bamboozle May 3rd. so psyched to see him.

i've been actually going to all my classes, doing all my work, studying for once in my life, and it feels fucking awesome. i no longer feel like a waste of life! work has also been good, i've been getting more hours and making mad $$$.

also, me and the creeps are going to see this lovely lady on may 2nd.

<3

sleepyhead

forever and ever and ever

for realz.

i seriously can't wait till you come to your senses and realize how lonely and desperate you are.

ah, amazing.